The past few weeks have been highly stressful in different ways. I have a few things going on with school including needing to make payments which currently are completely out of my reach at the moment. Adding to that, different family members having breakdowns in different days but on a consecutive basis hit me altogether this week. It also increased the wanting of having a partner to share these emotions and moments with and feel supported…it put me in a very emotional state. And yes, your girl is unmarried at the moment.
I baked cinnamon rolls on Tuesday for the first time and then again last night to send to my grandmother and uncle in Honduras. Baking with musicals helps me when I’m in a state like this because it allows me to be creative and let go of the emotions happening inside me. It helps me process through them and keeps me from feeling like I’m drowning.
Honestly speaking, though, I think a reason why I feel the way I do at the moment is because I stopped doing a lot of the things that I started this year. The main one being having a good quality time in prayer and meditation followed by a brisk walk or jog in the mornings. This habit I had developed threw the rest of my habits out of whack once I stopped doing it. Funny thing is that I didn’t plan on stopping, it sort of just started to happen slowly. Like, one morning, I would wake up and instead of reaching for my Bible or getting into worship, I checked my phone and started interacting with people on the other side of the world. Or, I would check on the latest episode of the drama I would be watching. It’s time to get back on track and refocus to what matters most and makes the difference in my life. In my case, this is spirituality and spiritual health.
Have you felt this way as well? I’d love to hear your thoughts.
The Things of Life 